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Dec. 9th, 2011 06:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
astra_auroraI'm thinking of leaving the PPC.
It's not a concrete decision yet. I need to think it over. But there are real reasons to it.
It's not the fuckery that was my last mission. It's not that it's hard to get to know people when we're meant to be a community. It's not my personal issues with July. It's not that I'm a naive twat.
In essence, it's an unfair comparison that I've been making a lot.
I'm a member of a forum. I won't name it. But I've been a member for a while, and it's a fantastic place. One of the biggest reasons is that we're unintentional practitioners of anarchy. That is, the traditional version- a state where a society had no ruler because they didn't need one. We have an admin, but he's been AWOL for a while. We had a mod, but she left. Since then, we've had no authority whatsoever... and nothing's happened. We get along. We sort out arguments ourselves. We're a big, fucked-up family, and we all love it.
The PPC isn't.
There's fighting. There's bitching. There's moaning. There's sniping. And I often don't feel welcome or liked. The IRC is a great place, don't get me wrong- I've had some fuckin' awesome conversations there. But also, part of it's that it's kinda hard for a community to get along when there's almost nowhere to talk. Not everyone uses the IRC, and so there's really no way to get to know them. A lot of the time, the PPC feels more like a fanfic-writing comm than an actual community. As in, one where people actually know each other by more than name.
I don't know. I used to dream about joining the PPC. I thought it'd be a really awesome place, a tight-knit community where everyone got along. Instead, what we have is more like a party where everyone there has only a passing acquaintance and we're only there because we all have the same mutual friend- outside the party, we'd probably never talk.
Yeah, this is YMMV. Most of it's just my opinion. And nobody's going to read this anyway.
I just felt like venting. I'll rewrite my missions, sure, but after that... I just don't know.
It's not a concrete decision yet. I need to think it over. But there are real reasons to it.
It's not the fuckery that was my last mission. It's not that it's hard to get to know people when we're meant to be a community. It's not my personal issues with July. It's not that I'm a naive twat.
In essence, it's an unfair comparison that I've been making a lot.
I'm a member of a forum. I won't name it. But I've been a member for a while, and it's a fantastic place. One of the biggest reasons is that we're unintentional practitioners of anarchy. That is, the traditional version- a state where a society had no ruler because they didn't need one. We have an admin, but he's been AWOL for a while. We had a mod, but she left. Since then, we've had no authority whatsoever... and nothing's happened. We get along. We sort out arguments ourselves. We're a big, fucked-up family, and we all love it.
The PPC isn't.
There's fighting. There's bitching. There's moaning. There's sniping. And I often don't feel welcome or liked. The IRC is a great place, don't get me wrong- I've had some fuckin' awesome conversations there. But also, part of it's that it's kinda hard for a community to get along when there's almost nowhere to talk. Not everyone uses the IRC, and so there's really no way to get to know them. A lot of the time, the PPC feels more like a fanfic-writing comm than an actual community. As in, one where people actually know each other by more than name.
I don't know. I used to dream about joining the PPC. I thought it'd be a really awesome place, a tight-knit community where everyone got along. Instead, what we have is more like a party where everyone there has only a passing acquaintance and we're only there because we all have the same mutual friend- outside the party, we'd probably never talk.
Yeah, this is YMMV. Most of it's just my opinion. And nobody's going to read this anyway.
I just felt like venting. I'll rewrite my missions, sure, but after that... I just don't know.
